It's been almost two weeks...

[xxmadsenxx]

And I'm still clean. It's getting a lot easier with each day, too.

All of this makes me really realize that I was taking everything for granted...my friends, my family, and just life in general. My family and friends have been so supportive and helpful. And Jenny...I couldn't ask to marry a better girl. She's the most beautiful, most incredible woman in the world. Every day I realize more and more how lucky I am to have her in my life. If it wasn't for her, I don't even think I would have been able to stay sober for this long.

Things are so much clearer already. I'm going to go back to school this fall (we'll see how long that lasts...school isn't really my thing). I'm really excited about the baby, too. That's my main motivation for staying clean. Like I've said before, I refuse to put my kids (and my wife) through the shit that I had to go through with my dad. I'd rather die. But as long as I keep that in mind, I think I'll be able to stay clean. I'm actually really optimistic about it this time around. That should help. I hope.

There's a new rule with my two bands...no alcohol allowed at practices or shows. That makes it a hell of a lot easier on me. I didn't even come up with the rule...they did, to help me out.

Things are finally looking up, and I couldn't be happier about it.

Comments

[xsillygrrl.livejournal.com]

Congrats. I am glad to hear things are looking up for you. I knew you could do it. You should be proud of yourself.

[unionmaid.livejournal.com]

some people can go their whole lives without ever being loved. and i mean by a parent, friend, sibling, etc. not just romantic love. and it is something that people always seem to take for granted when they have it.

i'm glad to hear that you are appreciating what you have!

[donrufie.livejournal.com]

I'm so happy to hear things are working out!