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[xxmadsenxx]

I'm feeling extremely guilty right now. When she tried to kiss me, part of me wanted to kiss her back, even though I knew it wasn't the "real" Jenny.

I don't know what to think about that. I love my girlfriend, so I shouldn't be thinking about kissing Jenny. I can't seem to get it out of my head though. Jenny isn't making it any easier. As if trying to kiss me wasn't enough, she was texting me all night last night, which is fine, but some of the stuff she said was inappropriate. In some of the messages she implied that she wanted to be with me, and others had sexual connotations.

That shit is not ok. She has a boyfriend, I have a girlfriend. Not to mention, SHE is the one who left me...so she shouldn't be pulling this shit.

Then she bitched and moaned about being sober and needing drugs.

God, she needs rehab. She needs to get her life together.

Comments

[lovestohateyou.livejournal.com]

Do you wonder if she's trying to get you under her control the only way she knows how? Like get you on her side somehow? Or even just keep you from being mad/disappointed in her..I dunno, maybe I'm way off.

[xxmadsenxx.livejournal.com]

I have wondered the same thing, but I have absolutely no idea. She's kind of a wild card.

[xxmadsenxx.livejournal.com]

I am on her side though...that's the thing. I'm sure she doesn't see it that way right now, since I'm one of the people making her go to rehab, but I am on her side and I always have been.

[lovestohateyou.livejournal.com]

It could be as simple (and as complicated) as feeling so out of control that she's using her sexuality to feel better. Has she committed to going to inpatient yet?

[xxmadsenxx.livejournal.com]

She has, yes. Although instead of going today like I had said before, she'll be going to rehab tomorrow.

[xxmadsenxx.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think that's what she's probably doing...thank God she's finally going to go get the help she needs.