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Sorry...another bitchfest.
Feb. 21st, 2012 06:15 pmI'll stop with the work posts soon. At least part of this one isn't about work, but it's still something I'm bitching about. I'm quite the Negative Nancy right now haha.
I left work at about 2:00 today. I just said "fuck it," and left. I didn't even tell anyone. A couple coworkers saw me leave and knew I was pissed off, but they probably assumed I went out for a cigarette break. Nope. I got the fuck out of there as quickly as I could. When I got home, I sent an e-mail to my boss saying I left and would finish working from home. That was partially true. I did a half-ass job working from home for a couple hours.
I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of being the Mr. Nice Guy boss, because everyone in my department bitches and moans to me about EVERYTHING. A good amount of the people in my department work directly under me and me only, but a few of them kind of go between departments, so they work for both me and a woman who sometimes works my department, and sometimes does other stuff. She's kind of a bitch, so I don't really blame them for coming to me for things instead. It gets really old though. They want days off that they didn't schedule, or that they know would be an inconvenience? They come to me. They want to leave early? They come to me. They're mad about something? They come to me. They just want to bitch? They come to me. They have any kind of problem whatsoever? They come to me. It just gets really fucking old. If the ones who work for both me and that lady want to bitch about her? They come to me. And of course the same goes for my own employees, since I'm their only boss. If they need something, are mad about something, want to complain about something, need ANYTHING, I have to deal with it, and I'm sick of it. This stuff going on with one of our main clients is just making everything a million times worse, and I've had it.
Like I said, I'm usually a VERY nice manager/boss/whatever you want to call it. I'm patient and understanding with people, and fairly laid back. But today I snapped at someone. She was bitching NON-STOP, wanted a bunch of paid days off even though she doesn't have any paid days off right now since she used all of the ones she has had available so far, and basically did nothing but sit there bitching all day while letting her work pile up. So I finally snapped at her. I wasn't a huge asshole or anything, but I used an angry tone. I said something like, "Samantha, go back to your desk. You're not getting all those days off. Stop complaining to me because I'm sick of hearing it. You're wasting my time, and you're wasting your time. I'm not picking up your slack, so I suggest you get back to work and leave me alone for the rest of the day." She and a couple people who heard looked pretty surprised when I said that. It's not like I said anything that bad, but they're not used to me talking to employees (or any coworkers for that matter) like that. I don't fucking care. I'm sick of that girl anyway. She's lazy and annoying, and I have just about had it with her.
When Ella is born, I am taking FULL advantage of family leave or whatever they call it. I'm taking as much time as I possibly can. Or at least a few weeks. Maybe three. I think you can take up to six, technically, but realistically I can't do that because I'll have way too much work to do.
ANYWAY...
Jenny had that doctor appointment today. Everything is fine. Her doctor told her she should probably take it easy the next few days, since the car accident put a lot of stress on her body. So she said she should pretty much stay in bed (or at least lounge around) for the next few days. So on top of all the work I have to do, I'm in charge of EVERYTHING around the house right now, too. Not that that's all that much to do, but I don't really need any extra work right now. I don't know how I did it all when I was a single parent. Well, my brother was living with me then, so he helped out quite a bit, especially with stuff around the house. And back then I wasn't working at the youth center at all, and I didn't have as hectic of a work schedule as I have had the past little while. Still though, being a full-time single parent was a lot of work. I guess I've gotten so used to not being a single parent anymore that maybe I'm taking certain things about it for granted. I don't know.
Jenny is irritated with me because I didn't go to her appointment with her. I usually go to them with her. But I couldn't. I had meetings, and couldn't get out of work. When I told her that, she retorted with, "Well you leaped at the chance to get out of work as soon as my appointment was over! You need to rethink your priorities." Then she walked away and went into our bedroom and shut the door. She probably wanted me to follow her in, but I didn't. I didn't want to deal with it. If she wants to be mad at me, fine. Right now, I really don't care. My family is my first priority, but I don't exactly have the luxury of blowing off mandatory meetings. I'm sure she'll bitch at me some more later, when she gets up from her nap. If it's not about that, it will be about something else. Oh well. I have had enough people bitch at me and to me lately, so what's one more?
I left work at about 2:00 today. I just said "fuck it," and left. I didn't even tell anyone. A couple coworkers saw me leave and knew I was pissed off, but they probably assumed I went out for a cigarette break. Nope. I got the fuck out of there as quickly as I could. When I got home, I sent an e-mail to my boss saying I left and would finish working from home. That was partially true. I did a half-ass job working from home for a couple hours.
I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of being the Mr. Nice Guy boss, because everyone in my department bitches and moans to me about EVERYTHING. A good amount of the people in my department work directly under me and me only, but a few of them kind of go between departments, so they work for both me and a woman who sometimes works my department, and sometimes does other stuff. She's kind of a bitch, so I don't really blame them for coming to me for things instead. It gets really old though. They want days off that they didn't schedule, or that they know would be an inconvenience? They come to me. They want to leave early? They come to me. They're mad about something? They come to me. They just want to bitch? They come to me. They have any kind of problem whatsoever? They come to me. It just gets really fucking old. If the ones who work for both me and that lady want to bitch about her? They come to me. And of course the same goes for my own employees, since I'm their only boss. If they need something, are mad about something, want to complain about something, need ANYTHING, I have to deal with it, and I'm sick of it. This stuff going on with one of our main clients is just making everything a million times worse, and I've had it.
Like I said, I'm usually a VERY nice manager/boss/whatever you want to call it. I'm patient and understanding with people, and fairly laid back. But today I snapped at someone. She was bitching NON-STOP, wanted a bunch of paid days off even though she doesn't have any paid days off right now since she used all of the ones she has had available so far, and basically did nothing but sit there bitching all day while letting her work pile up. So I finally snapped at her. I wasn't a huge asshole or anything, but I used an angry tone. I said something like, "Samantha, go back to your desk. You're not getting all those days off. Stop complaining to me because I'm sick of hearing it. You're wasting my time, and you're wasting your time. I'm not picking up your slack, so I suggest you get back to work and leave me alone for the rest of the day." She and a couple people who heard looked pretty surprised when I said that. It's not like I said anything that bad, but they're not used to me talking to employees (or any coworkers for that matter) like that. I don't fucking care. I'm sick of that girl anyway. She's lazy and annoying, and I have just about had it with her.
When Ella is born, I am taking FULL advantage of family leave or whatever they call it. I'm taking as much time as I possibly can. Or at least a few weeks. Maybe three. I think you can take up to six, technically, but realistically I can't do that because I'll have way too much work to do.
ANYWAY...
Jenny had that doctor appointment today. Everything is fine. Her doctor told her she should probably take it easy the next few days, since the car accident put a lot of stress on her body. So she said she should pretty much stay in bed (or at least lounge around) for the next few days. So on top of all the work I have to do, I'm in charge of EVERYTHING around the house right now, too. Not that that's all that much to do, but I don't really need any extra work right now. I don't know how I did it all when I was a single parent. Well, my brother was living with me then, so he helped out quite a bit, especially with stuff around the house. And back then I wasn't working at the youth center at all, and I didn't have as hectic of a work schedule as I have had the past little while. Still though, being a full-time single parent was a lot of work. I guess I've gotten so used to not being a single parent anymore that maybe I'm taking certain things about it for granted. I don't know.
Jenny is irritated with me because I didn't go to her appointment with her. I usually go to them with her. But I couldn't. I had meetings, and couldn't get out of work. When I told her that, she retorted with, "Well you leaped at the chance to get out of work as soon as my appointment was over! You need to rethink your priorities." Then she walked away and went into our bedroom and shut the door. She probably wanted me to follow her in, but I didn't. I didn't want to deal with it. If she wants to be mad at me, fine. Right now, I really don't care. My family is my first priority, but I don't exactly have the luxury of blowing off mandatory meetings. I'm sure she'll bitch at me some more later, when she gets up from her nap. If it's not about that, it will be about something else. Oh well. I have had enough people bitch at me and to me lately, so what's one more?
