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I wish Annie was here. :\ She's having a girls' night though. Oh well. At least she's sleeping over tomorrow. It's kinda sad that I miss her so much when I saw her 24 hours ago and talked to her for a while today. We have been texting back and forth pretty much all day too. But it's not the same as having her here.

I love that girl. I don't know how or why I was even THINKING about getting back with Jenny. I definitely want to be with Annie. I couldn't ask for a better girlfriend. She's amazing.

Speaking of Jenny, I only talk to her about once a week now. Sometimes twice, but it's usually just once a week and it's brief.

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Ugh. I wish today was the 2nd. I want her SO bad. I can't stop thinking about it now haha.

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I told Jenny to fuck off today. It felt great. Usually I would feel bad if I said something like that to her, but she deserves it. I'm sick of her shit.

Edited to explain:

She called me today, and I answered since I haven't talked to her for a while. She asked about Annie, and got pissed off about me being in a relationship with her again. Her response was "That's fucking bullshit. You told me we'd talk when I got out. You're a fucking liar, blah blah blah." I was kind of a smart ass back. I told her we'd talk, but not about us. I drove my point into the ground, and let her know that there is NO chance that she and I will get back together, so she should just give up on it. Then she said "I can't believe you're picking that stupid little tramp over me." Um...first of all, Annie is the exact opposite of a tramp. Second of all, nobody talks about my girlfriend that way. Jenny went on to insult Annie some more, and that's when I got mad and said something to her. I won't go into detail about everything that was said, because then this thing would be way too long. She took it way too far though.

Then she decided to make personal attacks on me. She said something along the lines of "You have this holier than thou attitude, but you're a hypocrite because you're a fucking cokehead yourself. We both know you're going to fuck up again and go drink or do blow. So just get it over with and go do it already and stop pretending you're so much better than me, because you're the exact same. Don't come crying back to me when you fuck up and relapse, which you will. You're a lowly addict and you always will be. Stop pretending."

It was actually a bit harsher than that but I don't remember every single word, nor do I really want to. That's when I said "fuck you" and hung up the phone.

I am done talking to her. I am no longer going to be there for her all the time. I am just plain done. I wish I could cut her out of my life entirely, but I can't because of our son. I am absolutely through with Jenny though.