Sappy Father's Day entry
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xxmadsenxxI had a great Father's Day. I am so lucky to have the family that I have.
This is going to be a really cheesy entry, but it should be no surprise to anyone that I'm super cheesy sometimes haha. In light of Father's Day, I just want to say how thankful I am for my kids. Being a dad is the best thing I have ever, ever done.
As lame as this might sound, having Evan honestly saved my life. Yes, I relapsed when he was an infant, but I got clean for good when he was 13 months old. If it weren't for him, I don't know if I ever would have done it. He has been my motivation for staying sober the last 5+ years. To be exact, 5 years, 3 months, and 15 days. That’s pretty fucking amazing to me. Of course Ella motivates me too, and I love her with all my heart, but she’s brand new…she wasn’t around when I was struggling to quit drinking and doing drugs. I still struggle sometimes, and I’m sure I always will, but not like I used to. I finally decided that I wanted to get clean for myself, but Evan was my main motivation. He was my driving force. Seriously, he saved my life. The few years that I was a single dad were difficult; especially since I was newly sober. But I will always be eternally grateful for the few years that it was just me and Evan. I’m extremely happy that Jenny and I are back together and that we’re a family again, but those few years with Evan were life-changing. I developed a bond with him like I have never felt with anyone else. Of course I have a strong bond with Ella, too. I’m not saying that I love Evan more. I love them equally. But the bond I have with Evan is unique. Being a single dad made me grow up. For the first time ever, I put someone else before myself, 100% of the time. He was my first priority, no matter what. My kids are still my first priority and always will be. But it really was a life-changing experience. I alone was responsible for the life of another person, and it changed me forever in so many ways. All really good ways.
I love Evan and Ella so much. Being a dad can be hard at times, and it was really hard in the beginning. Hell, it’s still hard with Ella. But I wouldn’t change it for the world. The amount of love I feel for my kids is incredible. I can’t even begin to describe how much I love them or how happy they make me. I am so happy and so proud to be their dad. I feel like the luckiest person in the world to have them.
So there’s my sappy Father’s Day entry haha. Happy Father’s Day to the other dads out there. I hope you’ve had a great day. You deserve it.
This is going to be a really cheesy entry, but it should be no surprise to anyone that I'm super cheesy sometimes haha. In light of Father's Day, I just want to say how thankful I am for my kids. Being a dad is the best thing I have ever, ever done.
As lame as this might sound, having Evan honestly saved my life. Yes, I relapsed when he was an infant, but I got clean for good when he was 13 months old. If it weren't for him, I don't know if I ever would have done it. He has been my motivation for staying sober the last 5+ years. To be exact, 5 years, 3 months, and 15 days. That’s pretty fucking amazing to me. Of course Ella motivates me too, and I love her with all my heart, but she’s brand new…she wasn’t around when I was struggling to quit drinking and doing drugs. I still struggle sometimes, and I’m sure I always will, but not like I used to. I finally decided that I wanted to get clean for myself, but Evan was my main motivation. He was my driving force. Seriously, he saved my life. The few years that I was a single dad were difficult; especially since I was newly sober. But I will always be eternally grateful for the few years that it was just me and Evan. I’m extremely happy that Jenny and I are back together and that we’re a family again, but those few years with Evan were life-changing. I developed a bond with him like I have never felt with anyone else. Of course I have a strong bond with Ella, too. I’m not saying that I love Evan more. I love them equally. But the bond I have with Evan is unique. Being a single dad made me grow up. For the first time ever, I put someone else before myself, 100% of the time. He was my first priority, no matter what. My kids are still my first priority and always will be. But it really was a life-changing experience. I alone was responsible for the life of another person, and it changed me forever in so many ways. All really good ways.
I love Evan and Ella so much. Being a dad can be hard at times, and it was really hard in the beginning. Hell, it’s still hard with Ella. But I wouldn’t change it for the world. The amount of love I feel for my kids is incredible. I can’t even begin to describe how much I love them or how happy they make me. I am so happy and so proud to be their dad. I feel like the luckiest person in the world to have them.
So there’s my sappy Father’s Day entry haha. Happy Father’s Day to the other dads out there. I hope you’ve had a great day. You deserve it.
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