My first proud moment

[xxmadsenxx]

I am proud to say that I was with some friends that were smoking pot and doing loritabs, and I didn't give in to either. It may not seem like a huge accomplishment...but I'm pretty happy with myself.

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[occchik.livejournal.com]

We got loritab here, and now I'm tempted. Lol.

That shit doesn't do anything for me.

[occchik.livejournal.com]

Ohh, and congrats.

[http://users.livejournal.com/--oh-what-now/]

Good for you! :) Someday, I hope to be able to do the same.

[all-askew.livejournal.com]

lortabs are the same as Vicodin, right? good choice, cousin.

that shit has Tylenol in it, too, which is harsh on the liver. There is nothing that will burn out your liver faster than booze & tylenol.

[xfaskinate.livejournal.com]

GOOD JOB!! i'm proud.

[ducks808.livejournal.com]

That's awesome!

[unionmaid.livejournal.com]

hey. i didn't comment on your previous posts, but mostly because i was trying to think of what exactly to say. i have never been in recovery but i seem to be surrounded by people who have or who are struggling with addiction. my niece (the one that i posted graduation pictures of) Od'd again a few days ago. everyone around her suffers so much when she is using. i wish she was as excited about getting straight as you seem to be. rehab always seems to be this thing that she half-heartedly attempts and is always looking for an angle, breaking the rules, trying to figure out how to get around the system, etc. i think your genuine desire to get clean and be a good father is going to help you out a lot.

i'm glad to see that you are feeling a bit of pride. it was only a few days ago that you felt worthless and not worthy of all the love that you have in your life. that is how much that stuff messes with your head! anyway, good luck!

[xxmadsenxx.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

As for how your neice views rehab and all of that...I used to be the same way. I've been through it numerous times. You have to really want it in order for it to work. And even then, it's hard. It's really hard. But until you find some motivation and you have a reason to WANT to get clean, you're going to do it in a half-ass way.

And you're right...it messes with your head so much. I'm amazed at how much different/better I feel already.