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Yeah, it is scary. And I know what you're saying, but I guess it's kind of hard for me to not judge her parents. I grew up with an abusive alcoholic dad, and I repeated some of that. Not the abuse part, of course. But I was drunk a lot when I relapsed when Evan was a baby. Luckily I got sober when he was 13 months old, so he didn't really know anything. But I never did coke or any other drugs around him or around Jenny, even though I was doing them all the time and couldn't control it. I don't know...I guess I just think there should be boundaries. It's not that hard to go into the bathroom and lock the door. Your kid will probably still know what you're doing, but it's at least a little better than doing it right in front of them. I know very well that people are often the way they are because of things they've been through and things they've been exposed to, and personally, that's what made me want to keep it away from Jenny and Evan. I was drunk and high around Jenny all the time, but I never did drugs in front of her. Well, except smoking weed. But she used to do that with me sometimes. And I'd drink in front of her. I know everyone is different, and I really shouldn't be so judgmental. I just think that what I went through with my dad, my brother, and the fact that I'm a parent makes me think differently. But if I'm going to eventually do this as a career, I need to get over that. I think part of the reason it bothers me so much in this case, with this girl's parents, is because I know her family well. So there's that bias, which shouldn't be there, but it's hard to not be biased when you know the people. I don't know the cousin well, but I know Jen's family well. And the fact that it bothers Jenny and Jen so much gets to me. So there's that emotional involvement. That's the type of stuff I need to work on before I can do this type of stuff full-time.

I hope so too. She's been arrested before, once because a cop saw her beating her ex-boyfriend on the freeway, and once for marijuana possession. So being arrested on another drug charge might be the best thing for her, even though it would kind of suck for her. B got help because he was court ordered into it, and he probably wouldn't have otherwise. So sometimes that's the best thing for them.

Wow, that was a long reply haha.