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I can't sleep, so I have nothing better to do right now. Annie passed out on the couch. I don't want to wake her up to go in my room, so I'm sitting here doing this instead. Lame.


Name: Chris

THE FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR
Something important in your room:
My bed? And I think my cat is in there. He's pretty important too.

If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy:
I have everything I want. So whatever Annie wanted, I guess. And yes I know lame that sounds.

Something you have a lot of:
CDs and DVDs

If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be:
This is assuming that the people/animals are out, right? Then I would get my laptop, and the stuffed elephant and blanket my son always sleeps with. He's at that stage where he can't sleep without them, so I'd get those first.

Something you can't live without:
My family/friends/girlfriend. As far as material things go? Probably TV and my laptop

You spend your paychecks on:
Bills...that includes phone bills, house payments, car payments, etc. etc. etc. Aside from that, food, toys, CDs and DVDs, and whatever else I need to spend it on. And kids are expensive! I can't really think right now. It's like 4:00 in the morning lol.


FRIENDS:
Three traits you look for in a friend:
Someone loyal/trustworthy, fun to be with, and someone who shares common interests.

Who makes you laugh most often:
My son, Annie, Ash, Travis, Nick

A friend who you can tell anything:
Annie, Travis, Ash, my mom, and I used to be able to tell Jenny anything, but that's not going to be happening anymore.

A friend you can go to for advice:
Same as above

The best piece of advice you had been given:
Probably any and all advice on staying clean. And everyone telling me to pull my head out of my ass and realize that I need to set up stronger boundaries with Jenny. Pretty much everyone I know told me that. I don't know why it took me so long to listen.

The friend who uses most of your energy:
Jenny. She can be draining.


EGO
Your 3 best qualities:
I'm loyal, a good dad, and a good boyfriend...at least I like to think so. And I would do anything for the people I love. But I guess that's 4 qualities.

Your 3 worst qualities:
The whole addiction thing, I can be lazy and I tend to procrastinate a lot, and I have pretty bad ADD.

Describe your ideal self:
I'm pretty happy with how I am right now. I suppose my ideal self would have graduated from college already though.

A compliment that makes you blush:
Anything you'd hear in the bedroom

The greatest physical pain you ever endured:
Tearing my ACL. I broke a few knuckles once and that was pretty bad too.

The greatest emotional pain you ever endured:
Losing my twin brother. Followed by my divorce.

Moment you are most ashamed of:
Being too fucked up to stop my brother from ODing. I didn't realize just how much he did.

Who/What makes you happy:
My son and my girlfriend

Who/what makes you sad:
Thinking about my brother


MORALS
If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to:
Nothing. I was a coke addict/alcoholic for close to half my life. So I don't want to be addicted to ANYTHING. Been there done that.

A time when you purposely hurt someone emotionally:
I don't know. I don't really want to try to think of something.

A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally:
All of my drug and alcohol problems hurt a lot of people, so I can't really narrow it down to one time. I'll just say the drug and alcohol thing in general.

One person you have killed in your thoughts:
Ann Coulter. I can't stand that bitch. I haven't really had thoughts about killing her, but someone should kill her. I used to have thoughts about beating the shit out of my dad, but I didn't have thoughts about actually killing him.

Your views on premarital sex:
Whatever's right for you. But I'm all for it, haha.

The most immoral thing you have done:
I don't even want to go there.



EMOTIONS
Emotion you hide most: I hide a lot of emotions. I don't like to appear vulnerable. I may post about a lot of emotional shit online, but I keep most of it to myself "in real life". I only let a few people in.

The emotion you tend to experience most:
Lately, happiness. :)

The emotion you are feeling most lately:
Read above

You have a huge amount of guilt regarding:
A LOT of things. I mostly feel guilty for all the shit I have put people through over the years.

When you are angry you need:
A cigarette

When you are in love you need:
Just the person I love


MEMORIES
One of your most peaceful memories:
I'd rather it not be about Jenny...but we were at the beach in California. It was shortly after we found out she was pregnant, and we just laid there talking and watching the ocean. I know how incredibly corny that sounds, but it's definitely one of my most peaceful memories.

One of your most tragic memories:
Watching Jeremy (my twin brother) die

One of your angriest memories:
Pretty much anything involving my dad

A memory that makes you happy:
Holding my son for the first time. Best moment of my life.



LOVE
Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive:
I think it's hot when a girl plays guitar. And Annie wants to learn, so I'm teaching her.

Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive:
I can't stand people who try to be something they're not. I also think it's unattractive when people try too hard...they just come off looking stupid.

A personality trait you find appealing:
Good sense of humor

What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship:
I can't name just one thing. I love being able to spend time with the person I love, having someone who's always there for me, someone I can talk to about anything, there's always someone to hang out with and someone to talk to...I don't know. I don't know how to describe what I really enjoy most. I really enjoy all of it. I love being able to love someone and knowing that they love me back. Oh, and sex. Haha.

You have been in love how many times:
3, including now

The people you love most:
My son, Annie, my family, and my friends


RELATING
Do you have a bf/gf if yes who?:
Annie

What do you find sexy about them:
Everything! She's gorgeous. She has a great body. She's intelligent. Her personality and sense of humor are sexy. I think the fact that she's a vegetarian is sexy (because I am too).

What drives you crazy (in a good way) about this person:
The way she kisses. She is an AMAZING kisser. She has absolutely perfect lips.

What drives you crazy (in a bad way) about this person:
She takes for-fucking-ever to get ready. And she's always watching the E! channel and telling me about celebrity news and shit that I really don't care about. She's too self-conscious sometimes, too.

Describe your mate physically:
She has dark (almost black) hair, beautiful blue eyes, pale skin, perfect pouty lips, and a really nice body.

Describle your mate's personality:
She's the sweetest girl I have ever met in my life. She's fun, she's loving, she's caring, she's funny...I could go on and on. She has an amazing personality.

You feel most attractive when:
I don't know.

Favorite thing you like to see your mate wear (clothing wise don't say naked):
She has this little black and white polka dot dress that she'll wear with red heels and red lipstick. She kind of does the pin-up look when she wears it. It's HOT.

What would you like your mate to do more of:
Sexual things...but we're getting there. Haha.



SEX
Your age when you first had sex:
Too young. It was right after I turned 15. My son had better keep it in his pants longer than that lol.

Number of people you have had sex with:
More than I care to admit to most people.

Have you ever had an STD:
No. I'm lucky. God must love me, because with the way I used to be...well, I'm lucky that I never got anything haha.

A place where you want to have sex:
I'm to the point where I don't even care. I just want to have sex! It has been far too long.

A strange place where you have had sex:
I'd have to think about what the strangest one was. There have been some strange places for sure.

Favorite song to have sex to:
I don't really care. Um..."Closer" by NIN?

The last time you had sex:
Like a year and a half ago. Fuck.

The next time you'll have sex:
Tuesday! I'm counting down the days.


FUTURE
Do you want to get married:
I'd like to get married again, yeah.

Person you think you'll marry:
Hopefully Annie!

Do you want kids:
I have a 2 1/2 year old son, but I definitely want one or two more.

What do you want to name your kids:
My son's name is Evan. Well, his first name is Jeremy (after my brother that died), but we call him by his middle name. As for future kids, I don't know.

Where you see yourself in 10 years:
Hopefully happily married to Annie with a few kids



FINALLY
If you had more time alone you would:
Sleep more. For sure.

If you had more patience you would:
Get through school a hell of a lot faster

If you had no committments what would you be doing:
Sleeping in, and spending more time with Annie and Evan. My son and my relationship are things I am happily committed to, so I wouldn't want to change those committments...but I could do without work and school.

If you could have one super power what would it be:
Teleportation. I'm lazy and I hate having to actually get up and go places. I don't mind going places, I just don't like the process of getting there. It takes too long.

If you could start all over:
I would never touch drugs