Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all you moms and moms-to-be out there! I hope you all have a great day today. You deserve it.

I'm very thankful for the moms in my life.

Jenny is such a great mother. You'd never know that she was the opposite of that for a few years by looking at her now. Evan and Ella are lucky to have such a good mom. I couldn't ask for a better mother for my kids. She's sweet, loving, caring, and always thinks of fun things to do with Evan and her daughter. She's also a much better disciplinarian than I am haha. For sure. Not that she's very strict or anything, because she's not. But she's much better at the discipline thing than I am. But yeah, she's an awesome mom. Not to mention, she makes really cute kids. Haha. Or I guess I should say we do.

My mom is amazing beyond amazing. She is by far the strongest person I know. I have said this many, many times before, but she's my rock. She is the one who stood by me through everything and never gave up on me. I put her through A LOT of shit, but she stayed by my side the whole time. She has been there my whole life to love and support me, no matter what. She has made SO many sacrifices for me, and I can never repay her for that. She is such a good grandma to Evan and Ella. I don't know what I would have done without my mom's help when I was on my own with Evan for a few years. I don't think I could have done it without her. My mom is the best mom in the world. I'm proud to be a mama's boy haha. I love my mom to death.

We're going to my mom's house for dinner tonight. It will be me, Jenny, Evan, Ella, B, my mom, my mom's boyfriend, my sister, my brother and his fiancee, my grandma, my aunt, my cousin and his wife, and their son...the one Evan plays with all the time. So it will be nice. I hope all of you guys have a good day too, whether you're celebrating or not!

Evan's bouquet for Jenny

Hahahahaha. Evan just went outside and picked a bunch of flowers out of the yard and made a bouquet for Jenny. Normally she'd probably get mad at him for picking that many flowers, because she worked hard on her garden. But it was endearing. I got her a big bouquet of flowers and said it was from Evan and me on the card, but he wanted to get her his own. I told him I'd take him to go get some, but he said "No, it's ok," and went off and did his own thing, which meant picking a bunch of flowers from the garden. Hey, at least he picked our flowers and not the neighbors' flowers haha. It was a nice thought. He's a sweet kid. I thought it was pretty funny though, because he picked way more than just a few. I tried not to laugh when I saw what he had done. He brought the flowers in and asked me for some ribbon, so I got him some and he tied the bouquet together with a pink ribbon. Then he asked for a vase to put them in, but said he had to give them to her out of the vase with the ribbon first, because "it looks nice and pretty that way, and Mom likes pink girly things." He also chose a stuffed Minnie Mouse to get for Jenny while we were in Disneyland, so he gave that to her along with the flowers. Jenny loved both things, even if he did destroy part of her flower garden hahaha.

Ok, two Mother's Day updates are enough for one day. It's a nice change from the long, negative entry I posted last night though.

Once again, I hope all you moms out there have a really good Mother's Day!

Oh, I forgot to add this. Evan drew a picture for Jenny in Paint and printed it. It's pretty cute, so I thought I'd share it here. Not bad if I do say so myself...it's probably better than I could do lol. Especially the writing. It's hard to write in Paint without the text tool!

ADHD

My ADHD is raging today. I can't pay attention to anything, and I can't sit still. When we were at my mom's house for that Mother's Day dinner thing, I kept walking from room to room, then outside, then back inside, and so on and so forth. Plus I was talking up a storm and just felt like being obnoxious. That last part is very childlike, I know. But I guess I was just in a hyper, annoying mood. So I kept singing stupid songs loudly, just for the hell of it. Then I ran around and played tag with Evan and my cousin's kid. Then we played this ninja game where you take turns trying to chop each other's arms off. I was way more on the kids' level than the adults today haha. It's more fun that way, anyway.

I seriously can't sit still, and I'm so bored. I keep going from one thing to another, and nothing can hold my attention. There's nothing on TV. No one is writing stuff on here. Evan, Jenny, and Ella are asleep, and B is with his girlfriend. So I'm sitting here attempting to entertain myself in various ways and texting people. Every time I'm in super ADHD mode I think, "I have never been this bored in my whole entire life." Obviously that's not true, but it feels that way. Every single time. I would go to my brother's house or a friend's house or something, but I'm on Ella duty, so I can't. So.fucking.bored. I almost wish Ella would wake up, even if it means waking up screaming, just so that I'd have something to occupy my time.

Oh hell yeah. Good Burger is on. That's such a stupid movie. Stupidly wonderful. Well, I haven't seen it in like a decade, but it seems like the type of movie that I'd be into right now. Even while typing this I'm sitting here tapping my foot. I couldn't sit still and focus on something right now if my life depended on it. I guess I'm kind of focusing on writing this, but not really. Typing about not focusing while fidgeting and trying to find something on TV doesn't really count as paying attention to something.

I feel like running around again. Too bad Evan is in bed. Damn school night. I suppose I could go running, but I hate exercising. Putting the word "go" before running makes it sound much less appealing. Yeah, fuck that.

At least I don't have to get anything done right now. If I did, I'd be S.O.L., because that wouldn't happen.

Ahhhhhhhhhhh. I'm so bored.

Too bad I can't take Adderall or anything like that for my ADHD. That would actually help. Strattera sucks. Usually I can manage it myself and keep it under control for the most part, but sometimes it goes crazy. Like today. It was a hell of a lot easier to manage when I could self-medicate with drugs and/or alcohol when I needed to. Not that I wasn't using them all the time anyway. I was always high and/or drunk as it was. But at least then my ADHD wasn't bothering me much haha.

Maybe I'll go eat some cheesecake. That will entertain me for about five minutes.

Fuuuuccckkk. This is going to be a loooonnngg night. Something tells me I won't be going to sleep for a long time.

This movie is stupider than I remembered it being, which is saying a lot, because I remembered it being really stupid. I'm bored of it after about five minutes. I'll probably leave it on though.

It's fucking hot in here. The thermostat thing says it's 70 degrees, but I call bullshit. It's lying. It feels way hotter than that in here. Now I'm bored, restless, AND hot. Shitty.

I suddenly got the urge to play darts. Or pool. Either one. Instead, I get to sit here doing nothing.

I want to read, but I would just keep reading the same sentence over and over again, and not absorbing anything, so I'd have to keep going back and rereading things, and I wouldn't get anywhere. No point in trying.

Now I want to go swimming.

I apologize for this entire entry lol.