Feel free to ask all the questions you want, whenever you want. :) I think it's a difficult thing to understand if you have never dealt with it yourself.
It's hard to explain how seeing someone really sick or messed up on drugs and/or alcohol can make you have cravings. You don't crave the negative effects. Seeing someone on drugs causes you to think about doing them, and then the cravings start. You don't think about being sick or fucked up to the point of being miserable. I'm really tired after last night, so I can't think of how to explain it right now. So I'm sorry if I don't make sense haha. When you're an addict, your substance(s) of choice has a huge hold on you. Regardless of the negative effects, you yearn for the positive effects. Not even just the positive effects...you crave just doing it, period. Part of what I really enjoyed about coke was just the process of doing it. I loved putting it into lines and doing them. I loved the smell, the taste, the drip...everything.
Quitting drugs and alcohol is extremely difficult, and it's really scary in a lot of ways. When you're an addict, drugs are like a crutch to lean on. Using drugs is a coping mechanism. That's not the only reason people use drugs, but it's a huge part of it. When you stop doing drugs, you're forced to deal with reality, and that can be really hard, especially when you don't know how to cope without using some type of substance to escape. When you quit, it's like you're losing your best friend in a way. Sure, drugs and alcohol can really fuck up your life, so in some ways they're your worst enemy. But if you have always depended on drugs and alcohol, ending that dependency is terrifying. There are plenty of negative consequences to using drugs. And despite all the bad times you may have had, there are a lot of good times. You crave the good. Even though my twin died of a drug overdose right in front of me, I didn't stop craving drugs. That shows you how powerful of a hold drugs can have on a person. I kept doing drugs for about nine years after he died. There were a few short sobriety stints in there, but I always relapsed. I used almost the entire time, until I quit in September 2007. A few other people I knew ODed and died, but that group of friends and I kept using. If people dying doesn't stop the cravings, seeing someone sick certainly won't stop them.
Drug addicts tend to be impulsive. Sometimes it's really hard to control those impulses. You just kind of do it without thinking. Rationally, you know that you shouldn't be doing it, but addiction takes over all logic and rationality. Common sense just kind of goes out the window. If a drug is in front of you, it's really the only thing that matters at that moment. You're not thinking about anything else, and if you are, you use the drug to push those thoughts away.
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It's hard to explain how seeing someone really sick or messed up on drugs and/or alcohol can make you have cravings. You don't crave the negative effects. Seeing someone on drugs causes you to think about doing them, and then the cravings start. You don't think about being sick or fucked up to the point of being miserable. I'm really tired after last night, so I can't think of how to explain it right now. So I'm sorry if I don't make sense haha. When you're an addict, your substance(s) of choice has a huge hold on you. Regardless of the negative effects, you yearn for the positive effects. Not even just the positive effects...you crave just doing it, period. Part of what I really enjoyed about coke was just the process of doing it. I loved putting it into lines and doing them. I loved the smell, the taste, the drip...everything.
Quitting drugs and alcohol is extremely difficult, and it's really scary in a lot of ways. When you're an addict, drugs are like a crutch to lean on. Using drugs is a coping mechanism. That's not the only reason people use drugs, but it's a huge part of it. When you stop doing drugs, you're forced to deal with reality, and that can be really hard, especially when you don't know how to cope without using some type of substance to escape. When you quit, it's like you're losing your best friend in a way. Sure, drugs and alcohol can really fuck up your life, so in some ways they're your worst enemy. But if you have always depended on drugs and alcohol, ending that dependency is terrifying. There are plenty of negative consequences to using drugs. And despite all the bad times you may have had, there are a lot of good times. You crave the good. Even though my twin died of a drug overdose right in front of me, I didn't stop craving drugs. That shows you how powerful of a hold drugs can have on a person. I kept doing drugs for about nine years after he died. There were a few short sobriety stints in there, but I always relapsed. I used almost the entire time, until I quit in September 2007. A few other people I knew ODed and died, but that group of friends and I kept using. If people dying doesn't stop the cravings, seeing someone sick certainly won't stop them.
Drug addicts tend to be impulsive. Sometimes it's really hard to control those impulses. You just kind of do it without thinking. Rationally, you know that you shouldn't be doing it, but addiction takes over all logic and rationality. Common sense just kind of goes out the window. If a drug is in front of you, it's really the only thing that matters at that moment. You're not thinking about anything else, and if you are, you use the drug to push those thoughts away.