Huge relief...finally on my way to recovery.

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I talked to Jenny today. It went a lot better than I thought it would. Of course she was upset, and a little hurt that I'd been hiding things from her, but she wasn't mad at me at all. She was really understanding about everything. God, I love her.

So it's settled. My first day is tomorrow. But I got a head start today. I didn't even use anything to calm my nerves before talking to her. I'm pretty proud of myself for that. One day down, the rest of my life to go. I already feel so much better. Just making the decision to go through rehab and talking to her about it took a huge weight off my shoulders, and I'm beginning to feel much more optimistic about the whole thing. It just feels different this time around. Probably because now I have something that I know I need to get clean for. And I want to. I honestly want to this time. For good.

Wish me luck.

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Ugh, hit the wrong button.