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xxmadsenxx) wrote2008-02-12 02:30 pm
xxmadsenxx) wrote2008-02-12 02:30 pm
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Back from lunch with Jenny
So...I just got back from lunch with Jenny, and I don't know what to do.
We had a nice lunch, but when we went to my house and started talking things changed. We chose to go to my house because she wanted to see Evan, so we had our conversation there.
I mentioned the cuts on her arms and she broke down. She told me that she has been really depressed lately, and felt like hurting herself...so she did. She also confessed to me that she went on a three day coke binge, the end of which was last night. She has only gotten six hours of sleep in the past 72 hours. I'm not sure if that's solely because of the coke or if it's partly due to her bipolar disorder, since she used to go through periods of time where she wouldn't sleep much.
She needs help. I know she hasn't yet developed an addiction, but she's sick right now. She told me that she almost called me to take her to the hospital the other night, and I kinda wish she would have. I'm really worried about her.
I also find it kind of disturbing that she's keeping all of this from Justin. I'm glad that she still feels like she can come to me about things like this, but he needs to know. I told her that she should tell him about what's been going on, and she said that she doesn't want to. I don't know what to think of that. He and I are not exactly friends, but I almost feel guilty keeping all of this from him.
I don't know what to do.
I guess he asked about the cuts on her arms a few days ago, and she said that the cat scratched her. I'm sure he didn't buy it, but I guess he left it alone. When I first mentioned the cuts she TRIED giving me that excuse, but I saw right through it and she knew that, so she confessed to doing it herself.
She is being SO self-destructive, and I have absolutely no idea what to do about it. It breaks my heart to see her doing these things to herself, and her growing drug use really worries me. She told me that the reason she has been doing these things is because she needs to feel something. I can understand that, just as I can understand using to avoid feeling certain things. Feeling entirely empty is horrible, and sometimes you need to feel something...anything. I typically used to avoid certain feelings and to escape from reality, but I have been where she is right now.
I just don't know what to do. I want to help her, but I don't think I know how to.
She tried to justify her cocaine use by saying it's usually only two or three times a month, but that is still far too much. I don't want to see her become an addict, and she CAN'T keep going on binges that last for days.
Fuck...I don't even know.
We had a nice lunch, but when we went to my house and started talking things changed. We chose to go to my house because she wanted to see Evan, so we had our conversation there.
I mentioned the cuts on her arms and she broke down. She told me that she has been really depressed lately, and felt like hurting herself...so she did. She also confessed to me that she went on a three day coke binge, the end of which was last night. She has only gotten six hours of sleep in the past 72 hours. I'm not sure if that's solely because of the coke or if it's partly due to her bipolar disorder, since she used to go through periods of time where she wouldn't sleep much.
She needs help. I know she hasn't yet developed an addiction, but she's sick right now. She told me that she almost called me to take her to the hospital the other night, and I kinda wish she would have. I'm really worried about her.
I also find it kind of disturbing that she's keeping all of this from Justin. I'm glad that she still feels like she can come to me about things like this, but he needs to know. I told her that she should tell him about what's been going on, and she said that she doesn't want to. I don't know what to think of that. He and I are not exactly friends, but I almost feel guilty keeping all of this from him.
I don't know what to do.
I guess he asked about the cuts on her arms a few days ago, and she said that the cat scratched her. I'm sure he didn't buy it, but I guess he left it alone. When I first mentioned the cuts she TRIED giving me that excuse, but I saw right through it and she knew that, so she confessed to doing it herself.
She is being SO self-destructive, and I have absolutely no idea what to do about it. It breaks my heart to see her doing these things to herself, and her growing drug use really worries me. She told me that the reason she has been doing these things is because she needs to feel something. I can understand that, just as I can understand using to avoid feeling certain things. Feeling entirely empty is horrible, and sometimes you need to feel something...anything. I typically used to avoid certain feelings and to escape from reality, but I have been where she is right now.
I just don't know what to do. I want to help her, but I don't think I know how to.
She tried to justify her cocaine use by saying it's usually only two or three times a month, but that is still far too much. I don't want to see her become an addict, and she CAN'T keep going on binges that last for days.
Fuck...I don't even know.