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I'm having one of those minor alcohol cravings, where I don't want to get drunk or anything...I'm just craving a drink. For the taste of it, I guess. It's not really bothering me...it's not that type of craving. For some reason a beer sounds really good right now. I'm not depressed. I'm not upset. I don't want it for some emotional reason. I just feel like having one. Just one beer. But I can't stop at one drink, so of course I won't have one. There's a no alcohol rule in my house, so it's not like there's any around anyway. Well, even if that rule wasn't in place, there wouldn't be any here right now anyway; Jenny is pregnant, and B can't drink for the same reason I can't (plus he's 17). But even when my older brother lived with me, there was no alcohol allowed in the house. At all. Just having it here would be way too tempting. And if there was whiskey in the house? Fuck that. It would be REALLY hard for me to resist it. That was my drink. Damn, now I could really go for a Jack and Coke. I'll settle for a plain old Diet Coke though. Aspartame is better than alcohol haha.

I forgot to go buy cigarettes today. Now I'm stuck with the few non-menthol ones I have left. I'm sure the only reason I even have any left is because I don't like them. Oh well. Whatever. Better than nothing.

I made one of those Christmas countdown paper chains with Evan today. The ones where you make chain links out of construction paper that alternate between red and green, and you tear one off each day of December until Christmas. My mom used to make them with us when we were little. He enjoyed it. He's also excited about his chocolate Advent calendar that he gets to start using tomorrow. I used to love those. I should have gotten myself one haha. You're never too old for a daily dose of chocolate!

The Christmas countdown thing just reminded me of something. One year, when I was like 18, my brother, my friends and I did this thing we called the Cocktail Countdown to Christmas. We made this giant poster with a different drink and the recipe or whatever you want to call it for each day in December. Well, each day until Christmas. Christmas was the "all you can drink" day haha. We had a shit load of stuff that day. Pretty much every type of alcohol you can get. I got so fucked up that Christmas, after I was done with my family stuff. That night was crazy. Anyway, each day we'd make the designated daily cocktail, and then cross off that date with a Sharpie. It was a pretty fun countdown.

Time for a Diet Coke and a cigarette. Two of the things I love most, haha. Just for the hell of it, and because I'm kinda bored, here's a list of the things I love most, off the top of my head. These things are in no particular order (but of course my family is what I love the very most):

- Evan and the new baby
- Jenny
- B
- My mom, my siblings, and the rest of my family
- My friends
- Cigarettes
- Diet Coke
- Guitar
- Music in general
- Naps
- Sex (regardless of my bitching lately haha)
- Kissing (Sex aside. And Jenny is an AMAZING kisser. Seriously, amazing. I could kiss her all day, with or without sex. Ok, now I sound lame. I'll shut up about that.)
- Coffee
- Chocolate
- Ice cream
- Pizza
- Free time
- Technology, because without forms of technological entertainment I'd be bored as hell a lot of the time.

That's all I can think of right now. Pointless list, I know. But it killed a couple minutes.
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- I am so bored. There is seriously nothing to do.
- I'm home alone, which rarely happens. It should be a nice break, but instead I'm bored as fuck. I'm not used to having this much time and space to myself.
- Jenny is having a mommy/daughter day with her daughter. They went shopping, then to dinner, and right now they're at a movie. She'll be home in like two hours, but that doesn't help my boredom now. Oh well. I'm glad she's doing things like that with her daughter.
- My brother is at his girlfriend's house, and will most likely stay over there tonight.
- B is at a friend's going away party. A close friend of his is moving out of state, so I made an exception to the curfew rule and told him he could stay out until 1:00 tonight. I think that's reasonable. He'd better not do anything stupid. I don't think he will though...he seems pretty set on maintaining his sobriety, and so far, so good.
- Evan is having a sleepover at his best friend's house.
- So yeah...I'm home alone and bored as hell.
- Boredom and ADD are a bad mix.
- I played video games for a while, then got bored of it. I don't have the attention span to watch a movie or read or do anything that requires sustained attention right now. I can't think of anything else to do, so I'll sit here and bitch instead haha. Well, not all bitching. Rambling about pointless things, too.

/bitch fest

Enough bitching about being bored. Now I'll just ramble about random things.

- I suppose I could go make bombs out of some of the leftover fireworks we have...we bought way too many. But I'd feel kind of lame making bombs by myself at my age lol. And somehow I don't think my neighbors would appreciate it. Well, a couple of them anyway. The others wouldn't mind.
- The criminal justice system is fucked up and should be renamed...it's anything BUT just. I'm just going to leave it at that right now, or this will turn into a long rant about how fucked up it is.
- There are WAY too many reality and competition shows. I swear, they make up like 75% of everything on TV. Maybe that's an exaggeration, but there are way too many.
- I think it's weird that society thinks it's ok for cats to get high off of catnip, yet marijuana is stigmatized and people are prohibited from smoking it. Wikipedia's explanation of catnip's main purpose is pretty funny. It says that catnip "is mostly used as a recreational drug for pet cats' enjoyment." It just seems strange to me that it's ok for cats to get high off of recreational drugs, while most states don't even allow people to use marijuana for medicinal purposes, let alone recreational ones.
- Tea baggers make me mad, but at the same time they make me laugh because they're so fucking stupid. Everything they say is ridiculously asinine.
- I have heard Britney Spears' Femme Fatale CD way more than any guy should ever have to. Well, I guess some guys like it, but whatever...not many. I've heard it way, way, WAY too many times. I'm pretty sure I have it memorized. But Jenny loves Britney Spears and listens to it all the time. Including in my car. So I'm forced to listen to it too. Oh, the things you do for love...
- Diet Coke and cigarettes make me happy.
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My cousin told me to do this. You're supposed to tag people, but she didn't and I'm not going to. Just take it if you want it.

Once you have been tagged, you must write a blog with 10 random facts, things, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end choose 10 people to be tagged. You cannot tag the person who tagged you.

Most people on my friends list know this already, but I have a 2 1/2 year old son named Evan. I want one or two more kids eventually. Becoming a dad was the best thing that ever happened to me.

I'm a vegetarian.

My girlfriend and I volunteered to help with the Obama campaign on campus a while ago. It was pretty cool.

There are four kids in my family. My big brother, my little sister, and me...and I had a twin brother. A lot of you know that part too though.

I sound lame for admitting this, but I'm kind of a mama's boy. Well, I don't know if I'd go THAT far, but my mom and I are really close.

I watch CNN every day.

I have pretty bad ADD. I always have.

I have been playing guitar since I was 11. That means I have been playing for 17 years. God, I'm getting old.

I'm a bit of an insomniac. I don't get nearly enough sleep.

I am addicted to vitamin water. I keep some in my fridge at all times.
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I don't expect anyone to read this, lol. I stole this from someone else that was obviously as bored as I am.

I'll put it under a cut to spare you.

Survey )
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Jenny is out with her girl friends. A bunch of my friends are out drinking. So I get to sit here and fill out lame ass surveys. Enjoy.


Singing in the shower? Guilty sometimes
Left the stove on? Guilty...but not today.
Ate Stale food? Guilty
Spit in someone's Drink? Not guilty
Stole Something from a friend? Not guilty. When I was younger I was definitely a punk ass little kid, and I'd steal...but not from friends.
Bossed your friends around? Guilty
Played with Barbies? All the time.
Left Love Bites on your past or present BF/GF? Guilty
Sang the wrong words to your favorite song? Not guilty...not my favorite one.
Lit candles & let wax run all down your desk? Not guilty
Made a Sex tape? Guilty
Kissed your posters of your favorite stars? Not guilty
Played Air guitar? Guilty
Listened to stupid music and said you like it? What?
Had sex with a stranger? Guilty
Did a Wrestling move on someone? Guilty
Had a Lite Brite toy? Guilty. Those things rule. We have one, haha.
Threw a surprise party for someone or yourself? Guilty
Made someone cry? Guilty
Opened your Xmas presents early? A few of them, guilty?
Ever been caught doing something "dirty"? Guilty
Did the time-warp? ???
Found money, and didn't turn it in? Guilty
Gave money to a homeless person? Guilty
Sang cheesy 80's songs? Guilty
Dug for buried treasure? Not guilty
Thought Star Wars was cool? Guilty
Pretended to be a South Park cartoon? Pretended to be? Not really.
Had a super-hero costume? Guilty
Still sleep with your baby blanket?Not guilty
Told a family member to Fuck off? Guilty
Lied to protect a friend? Guilty
Broke a bone? Guilty
Got lost in your own little world? Guilty
Seen "the goonies" more than 10 times? Not guilty
Played a Video game for more than 5 hours? Guilty
Watched "Scream" and actually Screamed? Not guilty
Dyed your hair a color from the rainbow? Guilty
Hugged your mom in the past 24 hours? Guilty
Drank until you passed out? Guilty

The Truth Can Be Fun

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Quick Basics
Location:My house
Down to the good stuff!
What are some of your goals in life?Stay clean, and just have a happy life with Jenny and our kids.
Do you actually have a list written out like in A Walk To Remember?No
How many have you actually accomplished so far?Maybe a few.
Which is really more important to you- love or money?Love
If you have something important to share with a friend, then say it here.No, that's all right. I'll pass. My friends don't get on this thing.
What is your biggest fear?Losing Jenny and my kids...and my mom, my brother, and my sister.
What is your earliest childhood memory?Finding bugs with my brothers...haha.
Whom do you hate more than anyone?My dad and a few other people.
Would you kill him/her?I'd like to, but I doubt I would.
Whom do you love more than anyone?Jenny, my daughter, my baby on the way, my mom, Travis (my brother), my sister, and my friends.
Would you die for him/her?In a heartbeat...any of them.
Share a secret that very few people know. Come on, it's a truth survey!I don't have secrets.
How many times have you had sex?I have no idea.
With how many people?Enough...I got around in my earlier years.
Would you have sex with a person you didn't love?I have. I wouldn't now. Well...unless I wasn't in the relationship that I'm in.
Have you ever seriously considered getting a sex change?No
How many people have you honestly loved?3?
If you had to choose, then would you rather...
not be with your true love, or just live with them and never get married?live with them and never get married. It's just a piece of paper.
be hated and remembered forever, or loved and forgotten?Loved and forgotten
live forever and be blind, or live until 65 with all of your senses intact?Live until 65
erase your bad memories, or keep them as lessons?Maybe a bit of both.
never have sex again, or lose a limb?Fuck. Can I lose a toe or a finger?
watch 96 hours straight of "The Wiggles," or eat a jar of mayonnaise?Oh God
rob a bank with a hilighter, or go diving in a shark-cage made of sausage?Who the fuck comes up with these questions?
Dishing more dirt...
How many illegal drugs have you done (including alcoholic beverages)?Alcoholic beverages aren't illegal. But if you count alcohol...well, I still don't know how many.
Have you ever purposefully overdosed on prescription meds?Not overdosed to the point of seriously hurting myself, no.
Have you ever taken prescription meds that weren't yours?Do I really need to answer this?
Does your family have a history of alcoholism/drug use?If you've read my journal at all, I think you know the answer to this.
Are you planning to experiment in college, or did you?I went for half a semester once. Then quit. Then I started up again about 6 months ago. We'll see how that goes.
Have you ever had an eating disorder?No
Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?Yes...emotionally abusive, possessive and controlling, anyway.
How did you get out of it, if you did?My friends and my brother helped me come to my senses and I ended it.
Do you see love like a drug?I try not to. I'd rather separate the two.
What song describes you in this moment?I don't know.
Who inspires you to better yourself?Jenny, my kids.
Are you an optimist, a pessimist, or a realist, deep down?Realist
Do you believe in fate?Not really.
If so, then where do you think it's going to take you?Nowhere.

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1. First best friend: My brothers
2. First love: Cami
3. First screen name: I don't fucking know.
4. First pet(s): Paws
5. First car: Haha a piece of shit that my brother and I used to share.

1. Last cigarette: This morning
2. Last kiss: This morning
3. Last good cry: I haven't cried for quite a while.
4. Last beverage drank: Water this morning
5. Last food consumed: I don't know. I haven't eaten anything today. I should probably get on that.
6. Last crush: Jenny of course.
7. Last phone call: My friend Ashley...one of many.

1. Who is your best friend: Jenny, my brother Travis, Kyle, Chris (another one)
2. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: Yes

1. Where are your favorite places to shop: I don't really give a shit. I buy a lot of shirts at shows. That's about it.
2. Favorite item of clothing: Various black band hoodies.

1. Do you do drugs: Read my journal about addiction. I try not to do drugs too often though...but there's nothing wrong with smoking a bowl every now and then.
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: I don't know, whatever Jenny buys. I don't really care.
3. What are you most scared of: Losing the people that I love.

1. Colors: Black, red, green
2. Foods: I like Mexican and Chinese a lot. But I don't eat meat, so it has to be vegetarian.
3. Subject in school: Fuck school. I hated it all. Except Guitar Ensemble in high school. I need to get back into school and get serious about it though.
4. Animals: Dogs. I like pitbulls a lot.
5. Sports: Drinking and gambling
6. Movie: Too many to name.

1. Given a bath: Yes
3. Made yourself throw-up: Not purposely
4. Skinny dipped: Yes
5. Been in love: I am in love.

1. Clothes: Black shirt, jeans.
2. Music: None right now.
3. Make-up: None
4. IMs: None

1. Kissed: Jenny
2. Hugged: Jenny
3. Imed: I don't really do the whole IM thing.
4. Texted: My friend Jake
5. Last person who slept at your house: Besides Jenny? I don't know, Chris. (Not me)
6. Last persons house you slept at: Mine. Or my mom's one day last week.

1. In the morning you are: Asleep or hungover.
2. Love is: Amazing
3. I dream about: Fucking your mom.

01. Chris
02. Madsen
03. Chris?

01. None really.

01. My musical ability
02. My outlook on life
03. I'm a good friend/boyfriend/lover/whatever.

01. Too analytical
02. Addiction
03. Very stubborn

01. Losing the people that I love
02. That's really all I'm afraid of.

01. Jenny
02. Sleep
03. Cigarettes

01. Shirt
02. Pants
03. Boxers

01. Nine Inch Nails
02. AFI
03. The Unseen

01. NIN -- You Know What You Are
02. NIN -- Every Day Is Exactly The Same
03. Bright Eyes -- First Day Of My Life. I don't like most Bright Eyes stuff, but Jenny and her friend got me hooked on this song.

01. Love and friendship
02. Happiness
03. Trust
04. Sex (Had to add that)

I'll just name three things about Jenny, since that's what applies.
01. Sense of humor
02. Fun personality
03. Beautiful and smart.

01. Quit drinking
02. Quit smoking
03. Convince Jenny that she's not fat.

01. Guitar/writing and playing music
02. Partying
03. Sex

01. A cigarette
02. Sleep
03. To kiss Jenny...but she's not home.

01. Musician
02. Mother fucking rock star.
03. No fucking clue.

01. Boston...I miss Boston. That's my hometown.
02. New York
03. Las Vegas

01. Live a full and happy life (with Jenny).
02. Raise my kids
03. Write a lot more music.


Jun. 3rd, 2005 02:57 pm
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1. Favorite scent... I like smelling cocaine. Just kidding. Um...the perfume Jenny usually wears.

2. Favorite way to relax... Playing my guitar, writing songs, band practice, drinking, sex, sleeping, smoking, talking to Jenny.

3. Favorite movie you own... Oh man...I don't know. I couldn't choose.

4.Favorite movie you don't already own ... A Clockwork Orange. I had it, but I don't know what happened to it.

5. Favorite male movie star.. Johnny Depp is cool.

6.Favorite female movie star... Hmm...Angelina Jolie is pretty hot. I like Nicole Kidman a lot though. I'll go with her.

7.Favorite book genre... The type of shit Hunter S. Thompson and Chuck Palahniuk write.

8. Favorite clothing store... I don't really give a shit. I mostly buy shirts at shows.

9. Favorite non-clothing store... The liquor store

10. Favorite cartoon character... I like Eric Cartman, Homer Simpson, and basically all of the Family Guy characters.

11. Favorite CD you own... Oh God, I don't even know. There's no way I could choose just one.

12. Favorite CD you don't already own... If I like it, I own it.

13. Pass the torch to five of your LJ friends!.
I don't really care. Anyone that's bored.
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Describe yourself using one band and song titles from that band

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Choose a band/artist and answer only in song TITLES by that band:Nine Inch Nails
Are you male or female:Mr. Self Destruct
Describe yourself:Heresy
How do some people feel about you:Head Like A Hole
How do you feel about yourself:Every Day Is Exactly The Same
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:Ruiner
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:We're In This Together
Describe where you want to be:Beside You In Time
Describe what you want to be:The Collector
Describe how you live:Sin
Describe how you love:All The Love In The World
Share a few words of wisdomThe Beauty of Being Numb

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You scored as Punk and Pop Punk.. Punk and Pop Punk.


Punk and Pop Punk.


Classic Rock.


Emo & More


Indie Rock








Hip Hop and Rap










Music Recommendation
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Fuck that last part...you'll have to pay me a lot to listen to Simple Plan.


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